I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE

In today’s world, many of us relate to moments of reluctance in the face of challenges. Whether it’s a daunting task, an uncomfortable change, or even a call we didn’t ask for, we often find ourselves, like Jonah, in the position of saying, “I don’t want to be here.” This phrase, which was humorously echoed by Jenny, a character in our sermon story, reflects a common human experience. Yet, as we learn through Jenny’s hike and Jonah’s journey, there is often great purpose in the paths we resist.

The Reluctant Leader: Jenny’s Hike Up Bear Peak

Jenny, a quiet, no-nonsense member of her hiking group, had always stuck to familiar trails, the ones with predictable paths and reliable views. But when her group leader proposed a multi-day trek up the rugged Bear Peak, known for unpredictable weather and tough terrain, she balked. “I don’t want to be here,” she grumbled, a sentiment familiar to her friends.

Yet as Jenny continued on this journey—through blistered feet, soggy clothes, and even a storm—she unexpectedly found herself guiding a young hiker named Hannah through a difficult patch. Jenny’s steadying presence helped Hannah, and, in that moment, Jenny realized a newfound strength within herself. By the end, when they reached the peak, she whispered, “I’m glad I was here.” Sometimes, the journeys we resist hold the most meaningful discoveries.

The Tale of Jonah: Running From Responsibility

In the Book of Jonah, we read about a man who received a clear call from God to travel to Nineveh and warn the city of impending judgment. Jonah, however, fled in the opposite direction, avoiding both the journey and the responsibility it entailed. But his attempt to escape only led him into a storm, affecting not just himself but those around him. He had to face his calling eventually, enduring the belly of the whale as a time of forced reflection.

Reflections on Resistance and Reluctance

Like Jonah and Jenny, we often resist what feels challenging, uncomfortable, or beyond our capabilities. Whether it’s a personal change, a call to serve, or an opportunity to lead, stepping into the unknown can feel intimidating. Yet, as both stories remind us, the paths we resist can become the ones that transform us.

 • Discomfort Leads to Growth: Growth rarely happens within the bounds of comfort. Jenny discovered her capacity to lead in a storm, and Jonah ultimately saved a city when he accepted his calling.

 • Our Actions Affect Others: Just as Jonah’s decision impacted the sailors on his boat, our choices have ripple effects on the people around us. Embracing our responsibilities can have lasting, positive impacts on others.

 • God’s Relentless Pursuit: Jonah’s journey reminds us that even when we run from God’s call, His presence remains with us. He is there, always inviting us back into purpose and transformation.

Taking the First Step

Perhaps today, like Jenny and Jonah, you’re resisting something—whether it’s a personal calling, an important change, or an act of faith. Remember that your reluctance is natural, but don’t let it define you. Embrace the journey, trusting that God is with you in every storm, and know that the path you’re resisting may hold the greatest opportunity for growth and transformation, both for you and for those around you.

So, take that first step today, no matter how small it may seem, and trust that one day you too may look back and say, “I’m glad I was here.”